Forever Changed

We all have people in our lives who inspire us, love us and each holds a piece of our hearts. I was fortunate enough to have been born with a guardian angel - my Grammie. I was two weeks old the first time I spent the weekend at Grammie's. When I was 18 months old I went to live with Grammie and I lived with her off and on throughout my life. Grammie was an essential part of the foundation of me - she was the cornerstone of my world, of my existence. I always knew no matter what everything would be ok because Grammie was in my world. Her smile could light up the world, her gentleness could warm the heart of a nation. My soul, the very center of my being, was anchored in my Grammie.

On March 6, 2008, my life, my soul was forever changed. It's a change that I will never recover from. Life continues and each and every day I feel her presence with me, I hear her voice and see her beautiful smile but there is an emptiness in my soul that tells me that life just is not the same, I am just not the same. I walk through life feeling unbalanced, somehow unable to get back to the person I was before my Grammie left this earth.
If given the choice, I would always choose to have Grammie in my life even knowing that I would spend my life from the age of 41 on in pain that I cannot comprehend. The years that I had her with me are worth going through the pain over and over again.
I am forever changed but forever grateful for her presence in my life.